I discovered I was pregnant at 2 am on a Friday night. Why did I choose that time of night to do the test you may ask? Well, I actually had a nagging suspicion days before that something was off. We had been trying on and off for the last 6 months and the prior month had me dissolving into tears because I just couldn’t take the hyper-scheduling anymore around my ovulation patterns plus the fact that I had worked that entire weekend also contributed to my stress levels. After my partner calmed me down and agreed to postpone the ‘deed’, I agreed to go through with it after making him promise that the scheduling had to stop! He agreed and what do you think happened exactly 28 days later?

Anyway back to why I chose 2 am to do the test. Well,characteristically, I’m one of those women who likes a touch of the dramatic. That is I choose those times to do things when sane people are asleep. Anyhoo…went to the bathroom, did the pee and waited….I could hear the minutes ticking past in my head..tick tock..half of me wanted it to end up negative as I’d had a couple of false alarms before and half of me waited for the unknown with bated breath.

Slowly the lines on the test turned pink..I watched in disbelief..No it couldn’t be! All sorts of random thoughts started running through my head. I sat on the toilet seat holding the test shaking from head to toe. My body suddenly seemed alien to me, and automatically my hand touched my belly. I could not believe there was a tiny object inside my belly that was suddenly so powerful it had turned those lines pink!

I stumbled out of the bathroom and called out shakily to my husband..’honey come here’. He came rubbing his eyes ‘whatsa matter?’  ‘I think i’m pregnant! What? No it can’t be, are you sure? we’ve had false alarms before and why did you do the test now? he bombarded me with questions that rained down on me like bullets. ‘Yes,no,’ I mumbled back and then I sat down on the couch my legs refusing to hold my weight anymore. I suddenly felt all alone in this world with my husband feeling alien to me (told you i had a touch of the dramatic!) and suddenly, quickly dissolved into tears…